After my conversion there have been immense moments of bliss and such an awesome feeling of being right.
However in the past two weeks I have fallen back into some shameful habits.......hard to imagine when I look at my previous posts.
I have had moments of pure shame, swam in muck I thought I would never get stuck in again. It's annoying, sickening and painful to contemplate and remember!
I know the Lord is beside me stretching out his hand to help me up get back on the road of righteousness again and I appreciate that greatly and Love Him for his awesome mercy and goodness.
I know my self anger will get me nowhere and I ask the good Lord to save me from self judgement and derision. My point this is really a point of maturity for me.
I need to stop getting mad and getiing even. How? By showing my Saviour that Yes I do Love you and my sin was just but a slip.
I also pray for the grace of commitment that I may perservere in faith.
I know this post is not entirely eloquent, flowing or sensible.
But my soul is developing a calm and easiness now that I really did not possess when I started writing this post.
God Bless us all.