Friday, December 29, 2006


Joy to the world the King is Born. The King is Born I keep meditating on those words over and over again.

The King is Born The King is Born The King is Born The King is Born The King is Born
The King is Born The King is Born The King is Born The King is Born The King is Born

Think about it!

Then Rejoice greatly!!


Monday, December 11, 2006

You and I are Refugees

A deacon at my church who actually lives and works in Sudan put advent in a whole new light for me.

He says in the same way that most Sudanese people are refugees in other nations and yearning to go back home in peace and start to live their lives anew so are you and I as christians.

WE are refugees too here on earth and we have always to keep yearning to go back home that has to got be top of our yearnings.

Say a prayer for peace in war torn Africa today and pray that we may all end up home with the Good Lord for ever.

beatin tha devil down!

Excuse the forthrightness of the title but at this stage the honeymoon of my new friendhip with the Lord is kind of over. Temptations are flooding in and it does get tough..............more than I can tell you but I always try to think of how sweet it is now being in communion with the Lord and forever in the life to come and that's where my strength comes from.

That the good Lord is here with me and will not leave but will stand with me and hold my hand.........................

Dont laugh ladies and gents but I am learning a pivotal lesson of faith here it is never I or me or myself it's always We me and the Lord unless I take a U turn or a side street into sin. ( Stress the world always.)

The evil one has got unbelievable tenacity even with Jesus nigh he still tries to make a pass at me and that's ok because I am determined to avoid his kiss of death.

Thats my prayer today that I may steer clear of evil and in the sweet company of My Lord and Saviour especially this Advent season

Thursday, December 7, 2006

Falling into sin

After my conversion there have been immense moments of bliss and such an awesome feeling of being right.

However in the past two weeks I have fallen back into some shameful habits.......hard to imagine when I look at my previous posts.

I have had moments of pure shame, swam in muck I thought I would never get stuck in again. It's annoying, sickening and painful to contemplate and remember!

I know the Lord is beside me stretching out his hand to help me up get back on the road of righteousness again and I appreciate that greatly and Love Him for his awesome mercy and goodness.

I know my self anger will get me nowhere and I ask the good Lord to save me from self judgement and derision. My point this is really a point of maturity for me.

I need to stop getting mad and getiing even. How? By showing my Saviour that Yes I do Love you and my sin was just but a slip.

I also pray for the grace of commitment that I may perservere in faith.

I know this post is not entirely eloquent, flowing or sensible.

But my soul is developing a calm and easiness now that I really did not possess when I started writing this post.

God Bless us all.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

O come let us adore him!

Thanks to Hollywood most people consider Beauty and the Beast, the frog and the princess, the film Titanic and Romeo and Juliet the biggest love stories of our time-wrong! The biggest love story in the history of humanity is contained in the little white host the priest blesses in every mass.

The Eucharist is undoubtedly the best part of being a catholic and Eucharistic adoration is God doing only what He can do-making the best much better and even more special There is nothing greater or fulfilling than the chance to be with Jesus one on one. The Eucharist is the answer to who we are why we are here and where we are going-Through Him with Him and Him- Cannon of the mass.

Walking into Eucharistic adoration is equal into walking into heaven only that there Jesus in the humble form of Bread and not the glory of his transfigured self. If he was in his transfigured form none of us would ever leave the church but he comes to us in humility that we may be attracted to him by love and respect instead of glamour and glory those and a lot more will come later- in Heaven. We have to share in the humility to share in the glory. How far is heaven?

It is out of incredible love for you and I that Jesus Son of God contains himself in that little white host considering the world itself cannot contain him. His presence in the Eucharist is an extension of his death on the cross with arms open welcoming all of us to come and spend time with him saying “Come unto me all who are weary and I will give you rest Mat 6:28”

Do not worry about what you will do or say before you enter being there is itself a great blessing “One day in your courts is better than a thousand elsewhere Psalms 84:1” Try and Realize who is present in the Eucharist. Present in all three meanings of the word. 1) Present as a gift, 2) Present – Now and 3) Present Physically.

Moreover do not judge yourself unworthy to be in His Presence because He came not for those who are righteous but for sinners. “Those who are well do not need a doctor”
Go in and tell Him with reference to yourself “Lord the one you love is sic Luke5: 30,31”

Pop in and say thank you after receiving Him in Holy Communion-we do well and always and everywhere to give you thanks-cannon of the mass. Hundreds walk in through the gate, many actually receive Communion but very few pop in to say thank you. Jesus waits in the Chapel asking painfully like he did when just one leper came to say thank you…Were not all ten made whole? Luke 17:17”

Being or Nothingness

I came across a blog titled Being or Nothingness?
Days later I cannot seem to get that question out of my head but even worse I cannot seem to gather the wisdom to answer it correctly. Until now. To be able to answer that question I realized I needed to know the difference between being-ness and nothingness. The difference? Salvation. Jesus Christ is the difference, his love, grace and companionship are all that makes us be, all that makes us live and everything else must stem otherwise its all useless. Moreover I realized that Being or Nothingness is a choice that we all have to make and the only way to show which side we have chosen is in through our lives the way we live; the good we do, the paths we walk, the words we talk, our entire lives must are a declaration of what we are: Being or Nothingness? Which are you?


“If anyone wants to be my disciple let him take up his cross and follow me.”
That’s a bit harsh isn’t it coming from the source of all Love and goodness? That verse used to be the most difficult in the entire Bible for me and probably a few other people to accept. However after finally graduating from spiritual baby class after twenty years that is no longer the case. Its really a very simple in the same way that Jesus suffered to be glorified so must we to share in his glory. We want his glory but are not willing to share his suffering.

If you think the words of Jesus above are hard to hear then sample this “ Depart from me ye cursed lot and into the fire of damnation.” Ouch!

Through suffering we are instructed, purified and made worthy of hearing the most beautiful verse in the bible Well done good and faithful servant.”

The bottomline is earth cannot be heaven otherwise we would not know the difference when we do get to heaven, au sio?
Its always easier to live remembering we never carry our crosses alone God is always with us unless of course we refuse to accept his help, guidance and light by not turning to, depending on and trusting Him.


As a Christian it’s foolish neither to be ready for death nor to accept the truth about that is death. We will all die me today you tomorrow. What then? In ‘the imitation of Christ’ Kempis writes of death. “If it is so terrifying to die, it is nevertheless possible that to live longer is more dangerous. Blessed is he who keeps the moment of death ever before his eyes and prepares for it every day.”
If you have ever seen a man die, remember that you, too, must go the same way. In the morning consider that you may not live till evening, and when evening comes do not dare to promise yourself the dawn. Be always ready, therefore, and so live that death will never take you unprepared. ”

It is better to avoid sin than to fear death period. Postponing our preparation for death is worse than being scared of death since we totally have no clue about the day and time therefore my friends think about your moment of death and pray that the Good Lord will find you ready, willing and worthy of Eternal life.


A few days ago feeling extremely tired I came home and dumped myself on the bed. When I woke up 3 hours later after a rather nice nap I did not have one of my (pricey) cufflinks on me. Having taken a shine to shirts with cufflinks (they make me look expensive) I was determined to find it and I literally tore my room apart, the bed, and clothes everything trying to find it. In the process of that frantic search the biblical stories of the lost coin, the prodigal son and the good shepherd all came to me and I collapsed back onto my bed smiling to myself. The truth of all these biblical stories was staring me right in the face! The truth of the effort of Jesus Christ each day to find me whenever I stray from the path of truth, light and grace the effort of the Living redeemer who is with me ‘till the end of time’ and who has not ‘left me alone.” When I compare that constant effort to the number of sins I commit everyday big and small yet he never tires of looking for me what I found is enough to knock out Tyson, Mohammed Ali and Holyfield put together that is the true and undying Love of God towards me. God is truly Love but the question do I return His Love? Or even try to?

Oh yeah I never found my cufflink which is okay probably because I am not as thorough as Jesus is or love the cufflink anywhere close to how much he loves me.